I do this to myself.  So, for the 3rd time in a couple years, I’ve let down my wall to let someone in.  This time, similar to the other 2, my timing couldn’t have been worse.  All three times, I’ve let someone in.  All three times, their hearts were with someone else.  Knowing this was the case with all 3, I pushed anyway.  Just like the previous others, I knew I would get hurt. 

Why do I do this to myself.  You know, there can possibly be someone who will fit.  Maybe not.  My clock is ticking.  I’m too old to spend the time looking.  I don’t know how many good quality years I have left.  I should just accept this path I have been given, prepare for the inevitable. 

‘Till the next time, back into my shell.  It will take something amazing I hope to get me back out.